okay i know i am updating a lot but i am anonymous in the mountains and nobody is reading this anyway. LA LA LA I CAN WRITE WHATEVER I WANT! i know all of this is seriously annoying, for the record. but i am really into blogs and journaling right now so i am updating. AGAIN.
today i was looking through my cell phone at all the things i took pictures of. i really like cell phone photos because they're always so incredibly weird, because every time you see something weird you are without your camera and you take out your phone instead and pretend to text someone while you are actually taking a picture, and everybody around you totally sees right through you and knows what you are doing but doesn't say anything because it is a trifling matter when all is said and done. so, without further ado, here are my cell phone photos. all of them were taken in taos, NM.
i took this today in the UPS store. D. was shipping all of his stuff to beantown, so i was hanging out and looking at the (mostly uninspiring) cards for sale. for some reason, this was the "card of the week."
i took this picture while stoned at smith's.
this is the alley cantina, which is this really lame bar in taos. D. and i walk here and get hammered out of our minds whenever we are truly hating life in this shitfuck town.
"wares" for sale @ smith's
(i kept my ralph's card from california, btw. it's pink, and all the lady cashiers always say that it's much prettier than the smith's card. i agree. that's why i kept it. i think the smith's card is orange, maybe?)
the alley cantina
important notice on the taos diner bulletin board.
smith's parking lot (smith's is a freakshow fyi, in case you haven't noticed)
adorable creatures at petsmart (petco? i don't know, but it was way before all this CRAZY IMMIGRATION SHIT)
and finally, the best car ever. i saw this right after i got my hair done on ledoux street at the AVEDA SALON omg. i really like the girl who did my hair. her name is monique, and she hates taos, too. i think i'll go see her once again before i leave. finding a good hairdresser is so stressful! now i'm going to have to search for one all over again when i get to NYC. oh well, maybe i will have an artsy roommate who will cut my hair for free on a cool night.
i can't wait, i can't wait, i'm so excited, i'm so excited! i can't believe i have to wait until august to see new york again. i have no idea what to expect. living in taos has been so strange and unpredictable. it feels a bit like a desert island. in some ways i feel like i've lost my edge, but sometimes i feel like i've gained a whole new one. today dustin and i were cruising around the back roads of town, and all i could think about was, new york is nothing like this. for all of my complaining, i am truly going to miss this place. the scenic beauty is amazing, and it is, as numerous signs will tell you on the way into town, an "all american city." it feels far away and exotic, but that feeling is but a cheap thrill. i am tired of trying to fit into a place based on its romantic appeal. i am trying to be realistic about things, and then perhaps something romantic will arise then. i am tired of forcing things. i am just trying to be honest with myself. NYC is where i need to be, and that is that!
okay, peace out.