Wednesday, November 30, 2011

the moment

last night i went with james to shea stadium to see DIVE, which is partly comprised of two of my oldest and most favorite bros of all time. i am so proud of them. best new music, holla! when i learned that andrew and cole were in the same band i was excited because i've always loved watching and listening to them perform, and it always felt right to me that they should play together. please run, don't walk, to see them play live, which they do with some frequency here in b-town. i wish the best for them. their music is perfect for right now, when everything is cold and sad and wondrous. winter is almost here. the end of the year is so weird. everybody is celebrating and overindulging and having a good time and picking over every single detail of the last twelve months, endlessly contemplating what was good and what was bad, what you would do if you could go back and fix everything you fucked up, if you could bask in those moments that were more exquisite than you ever could have realized at the time. all of these things occur to you and you want to sit and look out the window and think about them, but then you need to buy a christmas tree, you need to buy christmas presents, you need to buy champagne. none of it makes any sense. tradition dictates that we do these things at this time, no matter how you are feeling and no matter what is going on. i suppose what i am trying to say is that though i love buying the christmas tree and the champagne and the presents, i also like to stare out the window and think about it all, about how we are all supposed to tie the year up into this loud, garish, dizzying knot that is the holidays, and how we are supposed to wake up on january first feeling new, like everything was just a dream and that things will be different. things will be different. you will think, you will look out the window, you will listen to music that will help you think while you look out the window. in addition to the new tom waits and zola jesus albums, i will be adding dive's 7" into my rotation as well. i need more winter music. this is one of the best times to listen to music.

now, if you'll excuse me, i need to settle in and make progress in the paperback version of FREEDOM A NOVEL BY JONATHAN FRANZEN AUTHOR OF THE CORRECTIONS.

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